up a creek. in a creek. at the creek.

Sometimes when I think about God and his ultimate goodness and his ultimate love and just the ultimat-y of God I just don't even know..

He overwhelms me.
i mean literally washes
over me. and I'm drowning
in The God.

(Set Scene: Lakewood church. lights are dimmed. 5 kids. couple of adults. couple of pre-adult-adults. good'ol fashion Jesus Christo Music playin' over the speakers. couches.
Pre Service prayer has begun.)

I don't usually talk about my intimate God moments.
but i can't help it.
He overwhelmed me.
drowned me in Him.
laying on the floor.
tears streaming into my ears.
and I was lost in God.

No, no rushing winds. Or deeply imbeded shivers. No angel wings.
Just. The God.
and his heart for some students that come to the creek.
I was suddenly overwhelmed with a breaking of his heart for these few.
I don't know why.
but I know that I know
that I know
that God's heart was breaking for them.

He overwhelms me.
i can't explain these moments.
lost for words--usually.

....the point?

i'm overwhelmed.
i need more.
i crave it.
getting wet in the vastness of God isn't enough.
getting lost in "the gaze of his eyes, in the warmth of his smile"
isn't enough.


i. need. God.
in every area. in every season.
i need Him. to continually overwhelm and transform me.
to drown me in his love and push me out in his smile.
God's doing incredible things everywhere.
and he can..cause He's God.
I want more then the incredible.
I want the un-attainable.
the real.
I want to break the breaking point.



i want to be broken.
My prayer?
"God. break me."